little note.

how can you say things such as, "i love you, i dont know who i am without you." and other things like that. and yet, in a few years, you have decided im not right for you. how could you know that, if the time hasnt come yet? how are you going to be able to just drop someone, that you "fell head over heels" in love with? just like that. it doesnt make any sense. its basically breaking my heart in advance, with a side of crushing my dreams, after you helped me create them. you lied to me. you told me you wouldnt go anywhere, and that you wouldnt hurt me again. well, i guess like you said, people change. and ill learn to grow without you. hopefully into a better person. i hope you enjoy watching what you miss.

(6-24-12)

i sit and bathe in memories,
of who we used to be.
our love and happiness,
you were the one for me.

you are confused,
unsure of what to do.
who you love, what you want,
is this even still true?

i am also confused,
of who i want to be.
what i like, who i am.
i wish i could just be me.

i have noticed you have changed,
but then again, so have i.
and in your arms i think and fear,
that our love has gone dry.

you've said before, "people change."
its the thought i fear the most,
and in this little guessing game,
i seem to be the host.

we've gone through so much,
even through breakups too.
but the thing i fear most often,
again is losing you.

baby, please, i love you

baby, please, i love you,
please, just say you love me too.
its just that im so unsure,
of what im supposed to do.

i cant live without you,
or at least i hope i never do.
how am i supposed to move on,
knowing im hurting you?

i just want you to say you love me,
for us to stay and be.
im not even sure who i am,
without you next to me.

i really really miss you,
and i love you too.
i want to love you, and you only
i just want to be held by you.

could you say, "i love you?"
say, "i want it too??"
please oh please just answer me.
baby PLEASE, i love you.